Hes an awesome singer too (:

http://www.myspace.com/phung91/music/playlists/my-playlist-13517
go to page, now!

This is my friend David

we went to school together,
you MUST check out this page.
<3 Erika
http://www.youtube.com/user/dondiablo91

Pencil Sharpeners

So today I took a test in first period. It went okay (: Overall pretty okay.
then learning lab came and I had to sharpen my pencils.
My snowman pencil that Shane picked out,
my skinny pencil
and my heart pencil.
so I did but I decided to do things the hard way.
There was a pencil sharpener right next to the sharpener I was about to use.
well the sharpener I was going to use was covered with a desk and had no shaving savers haha
so I moved the desk, and grabbed a trashcan and sharpened my pencil.
My reason? the skinny pencil doesnt sharpen unless its with that sharpener.
However, I accidentally jammed my finger, my pinky to be exact in the process.
It hurt really bad and is still healing :P but itll be okay.
Im starting to get feeling back and I am typing with three fingers :P ^-^ I got skillz.~

I have a math test next period, I'm super nervous... I dont know anything...
ahhh! XD
oh well. wish me luck!

lol (: my essay

So I did an essay about domestic violence, I went up second today in the presentation. I was pretty proud of it. (:
I got a 4 on it. That's exceeding standards. Everything was exceeding. ^-^

I can't believe men

Boys are fucking stupid sometimes.. Not you Shane someone in my school. My friend Shannon is a good friend of mine, and today her stupid bf all of a sudden got mad at her and pushed her away and she grabbed his arm but he ripped her arm off.. I can't forgive that. I'm seriously mad right now. No one hurts my friends and what he did was a jackass move that fucking ass!!
*breaths* okay I'm better now. Just had to get that out. Thanks blog (:

Today

Today I started out at waking up at 5 am. My alarm went off. I then went back to sleep thinking I needed more sleep. I didn't go to sleep till late last night.
I then woke up at six, Turned on my ipod to lighten my mood, and got ready and finished getting ready at 6:30, with 10 minutes to spare. I then walked to the bus, wearing my winter hello kitty jacket, a scarf, a black and white pretty shirt and some jeans. With my candy shoes.
During the waiting time for before School, Alden and I got into a competition to not make eachother laugh, the competition still lives. so far ive won though
Then in first period I wrote a disturbing poem about Domestic Violence. About this girl getting married but then her husband starts to beat her and she tries to kill herself but she gets killed by her husband anyways. I.. freaked a few people out today. Even my teacher.
Then in learning lab, cole and david wern't there, and I was going to ask for help from them. They wern't there.. :/
so i think im gonna go somewhere else or something.
now I am in Digital Photography, doing my work on William Wegman. I really don't like doing this.. but I am slowing getting through this.
anyways ill ttyl.
Erika

Ten things I love about Shane.

Now I come to warn you I've never done this before
10. He's always there for me when I need him
9. I can always be open with him and tell him how I feel (especially the super gushy stuff)
8. I feel complete with him around and it reminds me each time we r away, I need him in my life
7. He's so supportive (: on everything
6. I love nerdy factor it's so cute! And yes babe this is in fine print you can be nerdy in public
5. Most amazing voice and songs, even though he forgot to post the song he wrote for me on myspace for about 2 months now lol
4.he's nurturing and patient and so giving
3.Hes sooo smart (:
2.how loyal he is
1. How I'm lucky enough to be in your life. Your my soulmate (: till now and forever. I love you!

I... Feel so sad today

Well screw sadness! Its just a wretch! Come on. I am Erika right(: Erika the asían! Theres nothing i cant overcome! (: I won't let things control me. I won't sulk. I have a mission to do (: and I have to be strong (: don't wear out the phrase people give you and be strong (: and as Le says, if you feel an emotion change that's it. So that's it! But idk I do have something bothering me. I kind of talk about other guys with my boyfriend bc I vent about things with him and I trust him enough to tell him. But, I've come to realize when I do that it just bothers him and it makes him jealous. And that's plenty understandable I mean.. I would be jealous too.. And I feel bad bc I never really thought things through about it. And I'm scared bc I didn't want him to make him sad or upset over it.. He's always so nice to me.. He tries his hardest.. Even if I only get to talk to him for a little a day or barely talk to him bc I'm upset or being moody or just don't have time.. Yet, I feel like I made him upset. And I'd be upset too. I'm not sure if I should keep asking him for help (cuz that's what I was trying to do.. But he gets upset so I stop) or just shut up about it.. Porbably just shut up about it. I can deal with it myself. I'll rely on him for things that r more important.. Man I need a hug right now.. I'm so sorry baby... Forgive me?

I feel stupid

I was talking to my boyfriend and he promised me He would write a super cheezyyy post for me on my facebook wall. So I was excited.. Really excited and checked facebook if he wrote multiple times.. :/ nothing nothing nothing. It was 12 am nothing it was 4 am.. Nothing. (I had nightmares) and now that I wake up nothing. I think that I should just give up.. He probably forgot.. It was my fault for keeping my hopes up...Haha oh well! (:

AHHHH JEALOUSY!

So i have a "best friend" for what shes been calling us.. for a long time..
but I dont really feel like we are best friends at all..
everytime I talk about her.. she talks about her other best friend..
Sara...Sara....Sara... :/ ugh.. im...jealous

Children's story

So for class (: I gotta write a childrens story.
i already got my idea (; i write.
Its going to be about a kid that gets their pencils stolen.
The kid is sad and tries to tell the teacher..
but its no use.
The bully tells the teacher its his and pretends to cry over it.
The kid who is bullied is irritated.
and goes home on a mission.
She takes out a magic rock, a rock that will grant one wish.
(her mom was actually behind the door and when she went outta the room the mom put the rock there.)
She wished for a magic marker, so she could never have her stuff stolen again.
She recieved the marker and wrote on all her pencils her name.
The next day, her stuff was stolen,.. but her names were on it.
The kid who was being bullied looked at the bullying kid and smiled.

"thats my pencil." bullied girl said. "it has my name on it" end of story.

Females.. its true

A Woman's Language, translated to English:
Yes = No
No = Yes
Maybe = No
She's cute = She's ugly
He's hot = He's hot
Do you think I look pretty? = I look pretty, and you should say I do too
What's are you doing right now? = Nothing because you're bored without me.
I don't want anything for (my birthday/Christmas) = Surprise me with more than your empty hands.
What are you doing tomorrow? = Want to do something with me tomorrow?
Who was that? = Who do I need to kill?
How much money do you have? = How much of your money can I spend?
Do you think that girl is pretty? = You better not think that girl is pretty.
Call me = Call me or I'll make you cry 
A Woman's Behavior, analyzed:
Laughs a lot = Flirt with me.
       Watch out. These women will kill you by playing on your pride. Use the buddy system to stay above water and not drown in their flattery.
Glares a lot = I want to kill you.
       Watch out X 2. Travel in packs around girls that do this. You need at least four men. One to fight her off/hold her back, and three to run for help. I personally like to do the latter.
Talks to herself = I've heard of girls whispering, "The end is near" randomly…um…see solution to "Glares a lot."

Kisses..

Have you ever noticed that the way a person kisses you portrays how they feel about you? The way I kiss people, are all based on how I feel about them at least.
When I kiss them abruptly: that means that they are mine and no one else can have you.
When I kiss them softly: that means I want to take care of them.
When I kiss them with a peck: that means I am either embarrassed if its in front of others or just want to tell you, I love you
When I kiss them passionately: that means I want to be in their life forever.
 (:

warm..

I feel so warm.. and tired.. I just wanna snuggle in bed and say nighty night.
Unless.. hehe.. you take me to the swings.. blanko please. blanko blanko!

wow.. haha
What is the movie Chocolate?

The Man Code

1. Thou shall not rent the movie Chocolate.
   
2. Under no circumstances may 2 men share an umbrella.
   
3. Any man who brings a camera to a bachelor party may be legally killed and eaten by his fellow partygoers.
   
4. When you are queried by a buddy's wife, girlfriend, mother, father, priest, shrink, dentist, accountant, or dog walker, you need not and should not provide any useful information whatsoever as to his whereabouts. You are permitted to deny his very existence.
   
5. Unless he murdered someone in your immediate family, you must bail a friend out of jail within 12 hours.
   
6. You may exaggerate any anecdote told in a bar by 50% without recrimination; beyond that, anyone within earshot is allowed to call B*LLSH$T. (Exception: When trying to pick up a girl, the allowable exaggeration rate rises to 400%)
   
7. If you've known a guy for more than 24 hours, his sister is off-limits forever.
   
8. The minimum amount of time you have to wait for another guy who's running late is 5 minutes. For a girl, you are required to wait 10 minutes for every point of hotness she scores on the classic 1-10 babe scale.
   
9. Complaining about the brand of free beer in a buddies refrigerator is forbidden. You may gripe if the temperature is unsuitable.
   
10. No man is ever required to buy a birthday present for another man. In fact, even remembering a friends birthday is strictly optional and slightly gay.
    
11. Agreeing to distract the ugly friend of a hot babe that your buddy is trying to hook up with is your legal duty. Should you get carried away with your good deed and end up having sex with the beast, your pal is forbidden to speak of it, even at your bachelor party.
    
12. Before dating a buddy's "ex", you are required to ask his permission and he in return is required to grant it.
    
13. Women who claim they "love to watch sports" must be treated as spies until they demonstrate knowledge of the game and the ability to pick a buffalo wing clean.
    
14. If a man's zipper is down, that's his problem - you didn't see nothin'.
    
15. The universal compensation for buddies who help you move is beer.
    
16. A man must never own a cat or like his girlfriend's cat.
    
17. When stumbling upon other guys watching a sports event, you may always ask the score of the game in progress, but you may never ask who's playing.
    
18. When your girlfriend/wife expresses a desire to fix her whiney friend up with your pal, you may give her the go-ahead only if you'll be able to warn your buddy and give him time to prepare excuses about joining the priesthood.
    
19. It is permissible to consume a fruity chick drink only when you're sunning on a tropical beach... and it's delivered by a topless supermodel... and it's free.
    
20. Unless you're in prison, never fight naked.
    
21. A man in the company of a hot, suggestively dressed woman must remain sober enough to fight.
    
22. If a buddy is outnumbered, out manned, or too drunk to fight, you must jump into the fight. Exception: If within the last 24 hours his actions have caused you to think, "What this guy needs is a good ass-whoopin", then you may sit back and enjoy.
    
23. Phrases that may NOT be uttered to another man while weight lifting: "Yeah, baby, push it!", "C'mon, give me one more! Harder!", "Another set and we can hit the showers." " Nice ass, are you a Sagittarius?"
    
24. Never hesitate to reach for the last beer or the last slice of pizza, but not both. That's just plain mean.
    
25. If you compliment a guy on his six-pack, you better be referring to his beer.
    
26. Never join your girlfriend/wife in dissing a buddy, except when she's withholding sex pending your response.
    
27. Never talk to a man in the bathroom unless you're on equal footing: either both urinating or both waiting in line. In all other situations, a nod is all the conversation you need.
    
28. Unlocking a car door for another man is polite. Opening it is gay.
    

I wanna..

go swing, swing swing! please! take me to the swings? please please please.. somebody.. *objective:bug my mom today... who probably will say no.. but I'll sing the 'im begging you take me to take me to the swings song'
~ aka, erika yelling in the car repetitively to her mom BLANKO (Swing!) mama! Blanko~! mama onegai onegai! (please) blanko noritai, noritai yo... (i wanna I wanna go on the swings).*

My favorite thing to do is go on the swings, its the greatest way to energize me and see me in a good mood for a 2 weeks to 2 months straight. My favorite part is feeling the wind past my face (: I love closing my eyes and feel the fear but comfort. As if I am flying.
i wanna swing.. dont you get those urges? I wanna swing.. I wanna i wanna... *whines* haha.
oh well.. ill deal..

My Christmas List!

1. Fabric Softener
2.Uhh. haha thats it

haha oh well.
...im going to fall asleep.. good night..
zzzzzzzz.

i miss snow

oh the stress..

its back, but its about school.. and I dont like Zagar.. he makes my life so much more difficult! and so does Calculus... I gotta get those assignments in.

I need a hug

I want a hug... babe? can I get a hug?

The dance?

So i wasnt going to go to the dance tomorrow until I was at learning lab. My friend cole went up to me and took me by the hand. "Erika, will you go to the dance with me?.. as friends of course" I raise my eyebrow and say"we have a test tomorrow" but then he kept convincing me and convincing me.. so I told him "okay, Ill ask my parents" dont think ill go.. but you never know.

wow not a nightmare

I had a dream about flutes.

cleaning flutes.

haha, and shane was sitting next to me.

I was cleaning a trumpet too.

so lets see what flutes mean? that might be how I feel about my boyfriend now (:

Flute

To hear or play the flute in your dream, indicates harmony in your life. Things are going smoothly for you. Alternatively, hearing the sound a flute, suggests sorrow and longing. You are experiencing a spectrum of emotions. The flute also symbolizes the phallus or a masculine component in your waking life.

and a trumpet? (:

Trumpet

To see or  hear a trumpet in your dream, signifies some sort of warning or danger that you have found yourself in. It may be a way for your subconscious to get your attention.

hmm. I know I miss my boyfriend. but the Trumpet part.. I was getting warned last night. 

and lastly, Silver.

Silver

To see silver in your dream, symbolizes the moon, intuition and the feminine aspects of yourself. It signifies tranquility and understated confidence.

the Flute was silver. And the trumpet was silver.

Trumpet.. the problem I am encountering, I am pretty confidence about it.(:


oh wait, cleaning~

Cleaning

To dream that you are cleaning, implies that you are removing some negativity in your life and overcoming major obstacles. You are moving ahead toward a new stage in your life. In particular, if you are cleaning your house, then it means that you need to clear out your thoughts and get rid of your old ways and habits. You are seeking self-improvement. Alternatively, the dream may be a metaphor that you need to "come clean" or tell the whole truth about some situation or matter.

To dream that you are cleaning an object, represents an aspect of yourself that is not working or functioning as well as it should. If you are cleaning the refrigerator or oven, then it indicates that you are getting to root of a matter or situation. It may also indicate feeling so negativity and inferiority. You feel stuck in some area of your life.

To dream that you are cleaning out a desk, suggests that you are getting rid of the burdens that has been weighing you down. You are acknowledging your new choices, decisions, and a new sense of freedom.  

Ah man, 5th nightmare

The nightmare had to do with water.

I was swimming with Shane..

and the next thing I know, I couldn't get outta the water.

and Shane grabbed my hand as I yelled, help me help me..I don't want to go through this alone..

and i was so heavy. So..so...heavy.. but I got out of the water. and cried in Shanes arms.

Swimming

To dream that you are swimming, suggests that you are exploring aspects of your unconscious mind and emotions. The dream may be a sign that you are seeking some sort of emotional support. It is a common dream image for people going through therapy.

To dream that you are swimming underwater, suggests that you are completely submerged in your own feelings. You are forcing yourself to deal with your unconscious emotions.

Water

To see water in your dream, symbolizes your unconscious and your emotional state of mind. Water is the living essence of the psyche and the flow of life energy. It is also symbolic of spirituality, knowledge, healing and refreshment. 

To see calm, clear water in your dream, means that you are in tune with your spirituality. It denotes serenity, peace of mind, and rejuvenation.

Haven't slept since 12:40

Hey guys it's Erika and I am pretty happy with myself now. I went to sleep, nightmareless! And dreamless. I slept for two hours and found myself wake up earlier than I wanted it to be. So I tried to go back to bed. It didn't work; I just found myself laying there with my stuffed otter runner to the side and in my arms the pink elephant my boyfriend won me. So I got up, It was then 1:30 and I gave up. I turned on the lights and began to knit until my ball was finished. I finished it and I have to wait till later to continue it. My next balls in the living room.. So now it's 2:50 and I still can't sleep.so now I'm debating what to do. Probably continue to cuddle with my pink elephant in which is nameless right now... Hmm let's name him.. What's a cool.. Wait what gender is he? I'm gonna have to say he's a boy. So what's a cool boy name? Max; I think that works. Next step spelling. Do I want his name to be fully spelled Maximus? Or just plain old max? I think plain old max works. Now the max spellings. Macs, makutsu, max, maks, hmm max works haha. Alright. This is naming child Erika at your service from her iPod. (: ttyl haha

Love is missing someone whenever you're apart, but somehow feeling warm inside because you're close in heart. ~Kay Knudsen

I miss you Shane.

Why?

Why is it that the first two periods either make me sleepy or depressed? I don't know. :/ they are both easy, and it shouldn't be bad.. 

English first, then basically a break in Digital Adv Photo.

then its math, Calculus, and then band, break, and then civics, and then drama, break...

I don't know.. Is it because I taking my vitamins and I didn't take them for half a month so I am having withdraws?

or is it because I am having so many nightmares that I am in a cranky mood?

Or maybe its because in calculus I feel like everyone there is a family..

here, i feel somewhat empty...like my dreams.

Imagine a life where you were scared, and empty inside, even though there was people in your life that means the world to you.. That was my dreams.. I am going to research the meanings okay?

Dress

To see or wear a dress in your dream, represents a feminine outlook or feminine perspective on a situation. You are freely expressing your femininity. If you are a man and dream that you are wearing a dress, suggests that others are questioning your sexuality. Or that you are feeling sexually insecure. 

To dream that you are wearing a white dress, implies that you want to appear pure and angelic toward others. Perhaps you are trying to look "innocent". If the dress is another color, look up the specific color for additional significance.

 

Ink

To see ink in your dream, represents creativity. You are adopting a new way of looking at things. If ink is spilled in your dream, then it symbolizes a blemish or minor problem. Or perhaps you are about to be exposed. Alternatively, ink may also be a metaphor for "getting ink" or getting a tattoo.

To see bottles of ink in your dream, suggest that a solution to your problem will soon become apparent.

It was spilled on the dress. Not my dress, my friends dress.

Levitation

To dream that you are levitating, suggests that you are holding on to far-fetched and outlandish ideas. You need to be more realistic. Alternatively, the dream means that you may not be feeling grounded or safe. You are feeling helpless and disconnected with those around you.

To see someone levitating in your dream, represents your desire to be helpful and supportive to others. Alternatively, It indicates that you admire or look up to the person being levitated. 

To dream that you are making someone or something levitate in your dream, represents your supportive nature. Alternatively, the dream indicates that you are trying to balance too many things in your life. It may literally mean that "things up are up in the air". You do not have a conclusion or decision about something. 

Ghost

To see your own ghost in your dream, symbolizes aspects of yourself that you fear. This may involve a painful memory, guilt, or some repressed thoughts. Or you may be afraid of death and dying. Alternatively, ghosts are representative of something that is no longer obtainable or within reach. It indicates that you are feeling disconnected from life and society. Try to figure out what the ghosts wants or what it is looking for. The dream may also be a calling for you to move on and abandon your outdated modes of thinking and behavior.

To dream that you reach out to touch a ghost, but it disappears, indicates that you are taking steps to acknowledging some painful or repressed thoughts even though you are not ready to fully confront them. 

To see the ghost of a living relative or friend in your dream, signifies that you are in danger of malice acts by that person.

To see the ghost of a dead friend/relative in your dream, suggests guilt and regrets concerning the past relationships with that particular person.

Needle

To see or use a needle in your dream, indicates that you need to mend some relationship or situation that has gotten out of hand. A needle is also symbolic of some emotional or physical pain. Alternatively, the dream is a metaphor for male sexuality or a sexual act. In particular, to see knitting needles in your dream, suggest that you are manipulating a situation in order to get a desired outcome. 

To dream that someone is using a needle, suggests that you need to incorporate and join together various aspects of your consciousness. 

To look for a needle in your dream, symbolizes useless worries over small, trivial matters. Consider the phrase of looking for a needle in a haystack to represent our fruitless pursuits.

To dream that you are threading a needle, represents unfinished issues that you need to tend to and perhaps even repair. Alternatively, the dream may have sexual connotations. 

I was refusing the needle.

Hostage

To dream that you are a hostage, indicates that you are feeling victimized or powerless. You feel limited in your choices or physically immobilized. Perhaps this dream is paralleling some situation/difficulties in your daily life or relationship. Alternatively, to dream that you are a hostage suggests that a part of yourself is not fully expressed.

House

To see a house in your dream, represents your own soul and self. Specific rooms in the house indicate a specific aspect of your psyche. In general, the attic represents your intellect, the basement represents the unconscious, etc. If the house is empty, then it indicates feelings of insecurity. If the house is shifting, then it suggests that you are going through some personal changes and changing your belief system. To dream that a house has no walls, represents a lack of privacy. You feel that everyone is looking over your shoulder or up in your business.

To dream that you are cleaning your house, signifies your need to clear out your thoughts and get rid of old ways. You are seeking self-improvement.

If you live with others in your waking life, but dream that you are living alone, suggests that you need to take new steps toward independence. You need to accept responsibilities and be more self-reliant.

To see an old, run-down house in your dream, represents your old beliefs, attitudes and how you used to think or feel. A situation in your current life may be bringing about those same old attitudes and feelings. Alternatively, the old house may symbolize your need to update you mode of thinking. To dream that your house is damaged, indicates your waking concerns about the condition of your house.

To see a new house in your dream, indicates that you are entering into a new phase or new area in your life. You are becoming more emotionally mature. If you are locked out of the house, then it represents rejection and insecurity. You feel you are being left behind. 

To dream that your house is broken into, suggests that you are feeling violated. It may refer to a particular relationship or current situation in your life. Alternatively, it indicates that some unconscious material is attempting to make itself known. There are some aspects of yourself that you have denied.

To dream of a haunted house, signifies unfinished emotional business, related to your childhood family, dead relatives, or repressed memories and feelings.

To dream that a house has disappeared,  indicates that you are not feeling grounded. You feel uprooted by a particular circumstance or relationship in your life.

To dream that water is rising up in your house, suggests that you are becoming overwhelmed by your emotions.

Message

To dream that you are sending a message, suggests that there is an important message that you need to convey and let others know.

To dream that you are receiving a message, represents a message from your unconscious.

I sent Shane a message telling him I was scared and that I needed him to save me.. but the thing is that it kept sending back.. a few times... 

I received a message from an anonymous number..  i didn't want to read it and I woke up. It was scary..

Running

To dream that you are running away from someone, indicates an issue that you are trying to avoid. You are not taking or accepting responsibility for your actions. In particular, if you are running from an attacker or any danger, then it suggests that you are not facing and confronting your fears. 

To dream that you are trying to run but cannot make your feet move as fast as you want them to, signifies lack of self-esteem and self-confidence. It may also reflect your actual state of REM paralysis during the dream state.

To dream that you are running alone, refers to your determination and motivation in the pursuit of your goals. You will find success and rise above those around you. Alternatively, the dream may mean that you need to hurry up in making a decision.

To dream that you are running with someone, signifies cooperation. 

I couldn't run so fast. and at times I was running away. and then i was running alone.

Friend

To see friends in your dream, signify aspects of your personality that you have rejected, but are ready to incorporate and acknowledge. The relationships you have with those around you are important in learning about yourself. Alternatively, dreaming of a friend, indicates positive news. 

To see your childhood friend in your dream, signifies regression into your past where you had no responsibilities.  Things were much simpler and carefree. You may be wanting to escape the pressures and stresses of adulthood. Consider the relationship you had with this friend and the lessons that were learned. Alternatively, the childhood friend suggests that you have been acting in a childish manner. You need to start acting like an adult.

She was just a friend.. and I'm actually jealous of her. >.< to tell the truth.

Boyfriend

To see your boyfriend in your dream, represents your waking relationship with him and how you feel about him.

If your boyfriend is away and your dreams of him involve a lot of touching, then it signifies how much you are missing his presence and having him nearby. The dream is telling you not to take the day to day things for granted. Learn to cherish the smaller things in life. 

To dream that your boyfriend tells you that he doesn't love your anymore, represents your own insecurities with the relationship. It may also mean that the relationship is moving to a new level to which you are expressing some anxiety and fears about the changing situation.  You may feel left out it in his life or that you are unable to share in all his experiences. It boils down to trust and communication. 

yeah thats what all my dreams mean.. Im sorry..