modeling

yup.

IM GETTING MARRIED! jk

So one of my really close friends Anthony have this joke going on saying we are married to each other.
Apparently we have 3 kids and we are engaged.. as of today. :P
So what happened was, I was writing a boring essay, working my butt off.
Then Anthony goes, what up Erika. Wanna help me with my japanese homework?
So i did :P
It was some strange homework.
But anyways, after that, I was continuing my essay and the conversation went like this:
Erika: Ugh! So boring! Anthony! will you marry me? I mean, we have 3 kids anyways, I feel bad for our kids of we weren't married.
Anthony: Of course!
Erika: Yessssss~
Anthony and Erika at the same time: Watashitachi wa kekkon shimasu~


and then Dalina, the girl next to us looked at us and laughed.
Dalina: Haha... your so funny you guys.

The word game

okay so heres a game
im gonna play with myself.
say the first thing that comes to mind

bubble
cat
kitty
howl
meow
rawr
roar
bunch
crunch
hunch
munch
i love you very much
moo moo
wahahhaha
cards
yugioh
pokemon
wow
cs5
content aware
tight
might
right
ripe
banana
horse
background
computers
google
sand
little kids
camera
1024
green hair
girl
blond
pool
clorine
asiain
not
bruse lee
halloween.
yellow
track
grass

....okay im done lol

dear baby!

have a good day at school today ^_^

reflections.

kinda creepy. ^_^

Reflections:

For this photo, it was a bit complicated. I was walking down the hall, about to return to my classroom. I was kind of bummed by the fact that I couldn’t get a picture until I saw this picture. I was inside, and looking through a window, taking a picture of a window, which had a reflection of the hallway, I was in. I thought it was pretty unique. I like it. I cropped it to show only the window.

sooo excited!

^_^
i get to see my boyfriend today!

:DDDD

ommggggg
im super happy right now.
i love you babe
i love you world!
todays such a wonderful day today! :D
^_^

Math QUIZ!-

David! thank you sooooo flippin much ! ;D
im gonna do great on this!

my teacher is gonna kill me

i just printed out my beauty and the beast script :P
and it was 28 pages.
oh well, im going to keep drawing.

I drew my boyfriend!

I drew him as a pink monkey who was smiling.
He is a pirate!
so he has a flag and it has bones with a banana in the middle.
He has a banana on top of his head and he is wearing a pirate origami hat.
His boat is a gigantic banana that says: Super Shane Mackinnon
on the side of that picture, is a camilian smiling keeping watched with a origami pirate hat on.
The monkey is standing on top of the banana with a cape on.
I drew it for my boyfriend.
I wonder if he will like it.

Babe, do you like it?

*yawn* tired

my boyfriend woke me up early today. (:
i love him, he's such a sweetie.
I may be tired now but that mean's I'll sleep well soon.
^_^
i miss you Shane!

Substitute boyfriend

Here is the long story.
This was 2 years ago.
I dated a guy named Tim for a while. like a year. but after he graduated he went to college.
so he hired my friend Cecil to be my "Substitute boyfriend." To me; it was just fun and games,
Cecil and I were just friends, didn't really think of each other like that. well, i didn't. until he told me he liked me.
Still since he was my substitute boyfriend it doesn't matter, i didn't really care. Plus i was super lonely cuz Tim at the time was kind of ignoring me.. but lets not talk about that. So then, me being sad.. I liked someone else. I liked him. :/
so I told my boyfriend the truth. He didn't break up with me. I told him that I'll get over the guy in two days. So i did. So it wasnt a big deal. I only liked someone else for 3 days max.
So yeah, I don't want a substitute boyfriend ever again.. I felt unloved. my ex didn't care at all. :/  He didn't get jealous either.. nothing. It was: Okay. idc.
for how much i remember..lol oh well.

I feel bad

So for english class I got a green paper and everyone was white paper. I was only green paper. So i was like yay! my favorite color! :D and I was super excited. but my friend zack was like: ooh my favorite color, can i have that paper? and I was like: okay! lets play rock paper scissors for it! and I won. :[ i feel bad

my stresses

what if i told you that your mother is a secret spy that misses obvious things, such as: oh; your doing your homework or practicing your instruments. Yeah that's my mom. Spy's are usually like that. Did you not know?
They have to make sure that their daughters don't turn into monsters that eat chalk. So they also must make sure that the daughter doesn't eat the magical chalk. When the chalk is consumed though, the daughter remains invincible towards the mother. I personally just eat regular chalk, I don't have magic chalk. So i can't say I'm invincible. But I am looking for it.. I am looking for that magic chalk.

PHOTO EDITING! PART 3

 Before

 After: i had to mess up the color pretty much with the saturate and the desaturate tool.

 Before

 After: Sephia :P

 Before

After: Patch tool. notice the lines are gone

PHOTO EDITING! PART 2

 Before

 After:

So, for this one, I used to healing brush tool and took away some of his pimples and his moles on his face. I even got rid of dark spots on his face. 

 Before

 After:

I darkened her pants with the burn tool and used the clone tool to fill up the hole in her pants. I used the dodge tool to lighten the moss on the trees.

 Before

 After:

I blurred and smudged the background, and sharpened Kyle (The runner).

 Before

 After:

I turned this photo into a black and white photo. In the picture, just having it black and white all by itself made my hair looked gray in certain areas due to the old dye I had when I dyed my hair part blond. Thus, I used the history brush and brought the color back to my hair.

 After: I used the red eye tool remover lol

Before

my boyfriend and I! names meaning

Last names first! :D

Mackinnon:
the son of Findgaine (fair-born).

Yeomans
one who owned and took care of a small section of land.

First names! 

Shane:
 God is gracious, Hebrew
Erika:
Eternal Ruler


Middle!


Tanner
same thing


May/ Mei
The youngest of sister, beautiful.
Chinese.

Rose color meaning

 imagine this.

"Oh the roses are so lovely– thank you so much, dear. So why did you give me fifteen stalks?" the girl asks. "Huh? Hmm– well just thought the bouquet look nice with fifteen." Ha you just got yourself shoot!
The meaning of roses: the color of roses; the number of roses each has got their meaning. Do you know that 11 roses represent "You are my treasured one; the one I love most in my life" whereas 15 roses represent "I am truly sorry, please forgive me"? Now isn't that a total twist of the meaning for the roses you gave? What had meant to be a message of love has just turned into a message of apology; implying you was guilty of something?
Before you try to impress that someone with that bouquet of roses, make sure you know the meaning behind it, the meaning of roses; what the number of roses represent.

 from a website. (:

thought it would be easier to explain. then me ranting

Red	Sincere Love & Respect, Courage & Passion Send red roses to convey the message of your passionate love for that someone; saying "I love you"
- Pink	Grace and Gentility, the rose of sweet thoughts. Send deep pink roses to show your appreciation & gratitude; saying "Thank you" Send light pink roses to convey admiration and sympathy
- Yellow	In the Victorian times, yellow roses meant jealousy. But today, they signify friendship, joy, gladness and freedom, the promise of a new beginning. Send yellow roses to brighten up someone's day; to congratulate your friends and loved ones during Joyous occasions.
- White	Spiritual love & Purity, the rose of confession, the bridal rose; "You are heavenly", "I am worthy of you" Commonly used as traditional bridal bouquet during weddings to symbolize a happy love. You can nevertheless use them to convey the message of "You are heavenly, I miss you"
- Lavender	Love at first sight and enchantment Send lavender roses of course, to convey the message of your "love at first sight" with that special someone. You can nevertheless also send them if you would like to make a special impression.
- Orange	Passionate desire, pure enthusiasm and fascination An excellent choice for a new relationship that you wish to pursue further. It can nevertheless also be referring to a new business partnership.

Meaning of Number of Roses:

- 1 Rose	Love at the first sight; you are the one
- 2 Roses	Mutual love between both, deeply in love with one another
- 3 Roses	I love you
- 6 Roses	I wanna be yours
- 7 Roses	I'm infatuated with you
- 9 Roses	An Eternal love, together as long as we live
- 10 Roses	You are perfect
- 11 Roses	You are my treasured one; the one I love most in my life
- 12 Roses	Be my steady
- 13 Roses	Secret Admirer
- 15 Roses	I am truly sorry, please forgive me
- 20 Roses	Believe me, I am sincere towards you
- 21 Roses	I am devoted to you
- 24 Roses	Can't stop thinking about you, 24 hours everyday
- 33 Roses	Saying "I love you" with great affection
- 36 Roses	I will remember our romantic moments
- 40 Roses	My love for you is genuine
- 50 Roses	Regretless love, this is
- 99 Roses	I will love you for as long as I live
- 100 Roses	Harmoniously together in a century; remaining devoted as couple till ripe-old age
- 101 Roses	You are my one and only love
- 108 Roses	Please marry me!
- 365 Roses	Can't stop thinking about you, each and everyday
- 999 Roses	Everlasting and Eternal love

PHOTO EDITING!

 Before

 AFTER

 Before

After, notice the background.
enjoy

are you dating him?!

People keep going left and right asking me if i am dating these people.
I am not! >.< I am dating Shane! Just now, two seconds ago: ooh, are you and Alden dating? yesterday: to me and Brandon! Ooh! are you guys dating!? or... ARE YOU AND CECIL DATING? >.<
but this one was the best. Ugh.
Cecil is my God brother.
why would i date my god brother.
T-T
ugh.
i need to hang out with more girls.

I want my boyfriend to sing me this (:

This has officially been my diary

lol, i dont write in it anymore,
and even if i did i would just repeat myself.
I sound like this in my diary toooooo~
:P so this is pretty muchh~ my diary.
but dude, i want you guys to still read it :P
i have always been open with my diary.
:P
and i especially want my Shane to read it ^_^

but yeah, about photography,
i want a subject.
a subject.
a subject!
man, im super bored. T_T
im gonna go make something.
a card, or an arts and craft something.
>.>


btw (:
the moons in pisces!
The Moon in Pisces trines Mars and conjuncts Jupiter, bringing a sense of energy and expansion to your dreams and imagination. You can take action now on fantasies that may have once seemed impossible. Your drive and courage will be rewarded with new opportunities for success.(:

I want to cuddle.

Last night, I had the strangest dream..
I was at school, at a football game.
I was just sitting there, but I was really cold.
So i see this kid from school, a guy.
and im like: hey you, im cold.
I ask him for his jacket, cuz cuddling with another man would be wrong
but he says no, so i just hug him.
saying "im cold.. im cold"
i was there for maybe 20 minutes in my dream.
the guy, he turned around and kissed me.
in shock, i jumped out of his arms and saw my boyfriend staring.
I looked at him and ran up to him.
"I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'll be more careful, I'm sorry I'm sorry."
my boyfriend kissed me softly and embraced me.
we then go back to the game.
my boyfriend and I.
we cuddle, and i tell him how much I love him.
Then everything shot like lightening and it was 5:15 am.
I was up out of my bed, and just sitting there.
but i dont know why but i fell down back into my bed.
and slept again.
It was 7:20 am and my boyfriend had called twice.
My phone was on silent.
Why couldn't I stay up at 5:15?
after getting up, what made me collapse all of a sudden?
I probably thought it was too early or something so i needed to go back to sleep
i do that.
lol
but nevertheless, i was late for school.
got at school at 7:50.
i didnt fully get outta bed till 7:30 so. :P
anyways, i wanna cuddle now.

Roses are Red.

Roses are red,
violets are blue,
the kisses of tonight,
are fully bloom,
ill love you forever,
until the end of time.
lets be together,
i promise i wont bite.
I love you baby,
your my monkey in disguise!
(:

Reflections assignment, Manual Photos, Professional Photo Editing and Panning artical

I gotta take Manual Photography. :P
Professional Photo editing, is EASY! :D
Panning artical, Im doing it now.
reflection assignment?
haha.. im gonna use my boyfriend for this <3 nahh, i dont know yet. I need to get near water though. i wanna take a picture of a building reflected in water. or my boyfriend looking into water. but how am i going to get close to water. >.<
this world is full of hard decisions.

Its strange

Its strange how when you fall in love with someone,
you never want them to go, never want to let go..
I really miss Shane...
If i could hear his voice right now, i think a bunch of energy will come and i can work hard ^_^

man....tired

im so tired.....
i fell asleep in class.
I was completely surrounded by school activities all weekend..
No break really. :/
I dont wanna go to NWFC...
not for flute playing for 3 hours.
thats torture..
not when im this tired.
is it bad that im tired of going to it?
is it bad that its really boring me?
man, erika: Pull through this, pull through this...
I keep telling myself that..
Deal with it for the rest of the year...
but.. i honestly dont want to.
I sorta want to quit.
Just a little bit...
You know its bad when your mom goes:
theres NWFC today right?
and then my chipper mood, ready for school was ruined. T_T
I dont want to go to math.
:/
I got behind and now i dont understand much.
But David promised me on thursday that he will help me catch up.
its just hard.
its just a bit reasurring that a lot of people are behind like i am.
I just wish i'd understand it..

Celebrity Collage by MyHeritage

MyHeritage: Celebrity Collage - Family tree template - Family name

Mexican and Japanese?

Morning Musume has happy songs (:

Lunch time Dilema

Current music i am listening to: Party TIME!
lol anyways
I am currently having a Lunch Time Dilema.
You see, because of the freshman, and their on going fights against eachother.
like physical fights almost every lunch in the old lunch
(Which i had, Tamina, Jamie, Alma, Briana, Anthony, Melony etc, all my girlfriends right?)
They switched the lunches. The teachers were all mixed up.
Now... the only people I know there are ALL guys.

one girl Teresa, she eats with the boys and doesnt talk. The only connection we have with eachother is Michael Jackson.
:/
so im surrounded by..
David, Colton, Andrew, Christopher, Stephen. They all surround one table in layers.
theres a bunch of guys. like 15.

I cant name them all at the top of my head.
*sigh*
no girlfriends..

Okay, this entry, :P beware. Weird facts! :D

ABOUT WOMAN~

• A woman does not have a man’s habit to scratch her noggin when she thinks of an answer to a confusing question, for example. Women doe not like to show they are confused. They never want to ruin their hairdo with that gesture either.

• Women will never understand why footballers stand in a line with their hands crossed before a penalty kick during a match. In addition, women never shudder when a male character gets kicked in the groin in a movie.

• When a woman yawns she covers her mouth with the palm of her hand, not with a fist.

• After taking a bath, a woman grabs a towel and makes a turban on her head from it, at least for one minute. The reasons of such a weird Oriental ritual are unknown.

• A woman does not get mad when her underwear gets stuck between her buttocks. Women joyfully wear those items of torture called bikinis.

• Many women worry about their looks when having sex.

• Women open bottles with bottle openers.

• A woman feels awkward if she does not carry anything in her hands. That is why they always carry their handbags around.

• Women are absolutely indifferent to their genitals; they hardly know each other. Women do not talk to them, they do not give funny nicknames to them and they never get angry with them.

• Sitting down in public transportation, women keep their legs together. That is why men often prefer to sit next to a woman because in this case they can sit spread-eagle.

• If a woman finds her fly unzipped in a public place, she does not seem to care too much about it.

• When a woman dresses up to go out, she puts on a blouse first. Pants come second. Men work it vice versa.

• when an act of love ends, women do not feel like sleeping. They feel like talking and kissing. 

• Women do NOT want an honest answer to the question, ‘How do I look?’

• A Saudi Arabian woman can get a divorce if her husband doesn’t give her coffee.

• It is illegal to be a prostitute in Siena, Italy, if your name is Mary.
• Women do NOT want an honest answer to the question, ‘Is that girl good looking?’

• The two highest IQ’s ever recorded (on a standard test) both belong to women.

•  Sex is more physical for men and more emotional for women.

• It’s okay for women to dance with each other and not be gay, You don’t see straight men dancing together.

• Women are never wrong. Apologizing is the man’s responsibility.

•  When a woman answers, “I’m fine, ” after a few seconds, she is not fine.

• If a man goes on a seven-day trip, he’ll pack five days worth of clothes and will wear some things twice; if a woman goes on a seven-day trip she’ll pack 21 outfits because she doesn’t know what she’ll feel like wearing each day.

•  Women can have partners that are years younger without being called dirty old perverts. 

RELATIONSHIPS and DATING

• One in three teenagers have experienced violence in a dating relationship.

• Women who post a photo on Internet dating sites receive twice as many email messages as women who don’t. The same study found that men who reported incomes higher than $250,000 received 156 more email than those with $50,000.

• On free dating sites, at least 10% of new accounts are from scammers.

• If a man can’t decide what to wear on a date, he might want to wear blue. Studies show that women are attracted to men in blue.

• Ninety-two percent of single parents would rather date other single parents.

• Thirty-three percent of online daters form a relationship, 33% do not, and 33% give up.

• Psychologists at the University of Pennsylvania studied data from over 10,000 speed daters and found that most people make a decision regarding a person’s attraction within three seconds of meeting

• Four out of 10 workplace dating relationships result in marriage

• In the online dating world, women are afraid of meeting a serial killer. Men are afraid of meeting someone “fat.” According to Ann Rule, about 3% of men are psychopaths, of which only a tiny percentage are serial killers

• Studies show that happiness is contagious and that potential dates find it hard to walk away from happy people. One of the biggest turn-offs during a date is negativity

• Studies show that before a man even speaks a word, the way he stands (whether he is slouching or not) counts for over 80% of woman’s first impression.

• Mirroring, or repeating someone’s body language, often impresses a date because it subtly conveys interest to the other person. One should avoid copying every move, however.

• Body language studies show that revealing areas of the body that aren’t usually on display (such as the inner wrist, the inside of the upper arm, ankles, feet, inside calf muscle, and the nape of the neck) has an immediate effect on a date and shows an instant liking

• If you want to create an instant link with a date, say his or her name at least twice in the conversation. This shows attentiveness and connectiveness.

• Studies show that remembering bits of information about a person and working them into conversations not only is highly flattering but also shows interest

• Bad breath and bad teeth are an instant turn-off for potential dates. If deep dental cleaning doesn’t improve a person’s breath, he or she could have a stomach bacterium called H. pylori, which causes bad breath

• Top ten turn-offs for women include cystic acne, raggedy nails, flatulence and belching, missing teeth, body odor, bad breath, hairy nostrils, “man boobs,” “goofy” glasses, and hair “mistakes."

• When a man first approaches a woman, she will base 55% of her initial impression of him on his appearance and body language, 38% on his style of speaking, and 7% on what he actually says

• If a group of women are standing together but their eyes are wandering, they are likely to be looking for guys. If they each take a turn to break away from the group to head to the bathroom alone, they are on the prowl. If they are huddled together giggling, they are usually not interested in finding men

• If a woman is interested in her date, she will often smile at his jokes, play with her hair, fidget with an object such as a glass, blush when he pays her a compliment, pout or pucker her mouth, stumble over words, or lean in towards him.

• Signs that a woman is not interested in her date include avoiding eye contact, faking a smile or not smiling, leaning away, answering in monosyllables, sagging her shoulders, looking at her watch, tapping her foot, or staring blankly.

• Beautiful women typically get more stares, winks, and harassment than average-looking women do, but they are also less likely to get asked out by average-looking men because those men tend to be intimated by them

• Worst places to go on first date include fast-food restaurants, your kids’ birthday party or school play, your parents’ house, strip clubs, X-rated films or swingers parties, a party where your ex will be, church activities, or window shopping

• Dating specialists suggest that if a woman doesn’t return a call after two messages, she is not interested.

• In American society, when a man offers his date his palm face up, he is most likely deeply attracted to the woman. In fact, a human’s brain is wired to respond to hand gestures and hand shapes, though the brain’s response depends on the man or woman’s culture and ethnicity

• Research shows that men know they’re falling in love after just three dates, but women don’t fall in love until date 14.

• It is hard for a man to strike up a conversation if there are just two women at a social scene because he doesn’t want the other friend to feel abandoned. So a woman who is looking to attract a date should bring two “wing women” with her.

(;

hahahaaa. flashback from sophomore year! XD

This is an email from sophomore year..
>.>
so; i came into 3rd period and Chris is there jumping around the room like a crazy man holding onto his... thing.
he finally sat down and started to move around.
he kept staring at the clock and complaining about how much it hurt.
finally 8 minutes come across and and he's shaking and telling the teacher "Mr. Van Beek! this is the longest 8 minutes of my life!"
after being antsy for a while Chad makes water sounds with his mouth.
Finally 2 minutes away from the clock. Hes like "yes! 2 minutes. clock! turn! turn!"
finally 1 minute.
he gets so antsy and curious on what chad was doing he goes and sits next to him.randomly
as soon as the the clock gets past that one minute he gets SUPER excited and runs out the door.
After he ran down the hallway he finally came back. it was really quick on how fast he came back.
He came in the door and mr. Van Beek was like "feel better?"
He sighed a little and said "yeah.. Much better"
He slowly sits down and tells Chad he ran down the hall.
Then he sighed again;
"I never felt this much happy from going to the bathroom."
Then;
Chris decides to look at games and gets super excited.
then "chad" and chris have a very SEXY conversation about games.
Chad; who is reading over my shoulder is laughing saying "ok"
oh and he said "yeah" too
Van beek is just doing his work.
chillin like a web designer bushbaby gangsta <--------uhh.. did i really type that?
oh yeah
he also decided to stop class and show us a picture of a bushbaby
great huh?
anyways; that was the end of chris' back from bathroom emergency adventure.
hope you enjoyed that

Febuary ninth 2009
okay what else funny things happened?
email search......
Ohh. May 31st 2008
wow.. this is extreme!

here it is:

There is an Evil Burrito that wants to take on the Mighty Taco. The Mighty Taco has an awesome sidekick named Nachos. Since NB wanted to record the fight on You Tube, he went to go and see it with his Camcorder. In the end, NB just got beat up. And The Evil Burrito and the Mighty Taco and Nachos became best friends!

Unfortunately, NB shoot his nipple powers that made the Mighty Taco and the Burrito...and nachos at a disadvantage. They began to cry. 1 day later, NB wanted to be president. So, as horrible as bush is, we let him. And the world came to peace~! More people had jobs that got them 1 million dollars a year. And the best part was, the prices never went up, the gas money never went up! It went down! They created more and more trees every year, and instead of the rule, cut down one tree and plant 5. We made the rule of cut one tree and plant 1500! This gave us an advantage to making pencils! And everyone was happy!

To eliminate obesity, Bakerys had created a special type of sugar that is both healthier and does not contain so many calories and carbs and whatever. The sugar tastes the same as well!

The new paper is 100 percent recycled with a mixture of cardboard to make it hard and nice. It might be yellow or brown but it was completely for the environment! Everything was able to be recycled and there was no trash in sight! Just recycle bins. And even if it's an ice cream wrapper or whatever, you can recycle it and use it as paper! And nobody cared!

As for instruments! Knowing how Erika loved instruments, NB wanted to make learning an instrument a requirement!

"In Japan", Erika said, "In The elementary school it is a requirement to learn the recorder. If people started to AT LEAST learn the recorder then their singing will be better and they will increase in better grades."

1 year later, NB made people take away the WASL and told the state to make school fun, and end up learning something anyways!

Trust in the student's grades, a test does not prove anything. It just creates stress.

Wait till next week for the rest of the story! 

alright (: ttyl

Boring a camera (; YES!

wahahhaa a professional camera!

Panning project done!

i finally found a picture i approve of, and I turned it in, made a contact sheet and wrote a paragraph on it. Next is manual photos. My problem is that my camera doesn't have manual! >.< ill borrow my moms camera tonight.

The Jim Ross Gym

Our gym is officially called the Jim Ross Gym as of today. A teacher, Jim Ross was one of the greatest teacher you can imagine.
He taught for fourty years, thinking of others first, and always working hard.
He was actually my chemistry teacher.
Before his class, I used to struggle with science.. I used to hate it. He's the one who turned it around.
He was the voice of the cardinals, for all games. Even after his retirement, he still continues.
(: hes an amazing teacher.

I got some homework to do (;

So i am probably going to be taking pictures of cars. :o

or maybe ill get someone to run for me >.< :D
hmm.
i miss my boyfriend.

haha, :P so this morning

this morning, the medicine i took was processing in my body so >.<
haha i did some crazy things (;
I hung out with zack this morning.
the whole entire time we talked and i did random funny faces.
I dont know why though.
he kept laughing so i guess it was super funny though.
(:
he watched me dance around and shook his head.
and then i danced with my friend Teresa (:
She's amazing.
and then zack spinned in a circle!
and that made me plenty excited (:
and then after that... after that!
i went to class.
doing a paper on Risshou kosei kai buddhism.
now im here.
well i gtg c ya

Catching up.

Dude Dude Dude. I am soooo stressed >.<
so much to do, so much to do. meow meow meow meow!!
I want a rice ball...
i really really really want a rice ball.
*Wishes that theirs a rice ball in their bag*
YESSS! RICE BALL!
*eats*

I can think straight again.

So as usual i over stressed myself and got my immunity system down and got sick.
Although it was just supposed to be a regular cold, my panicking over projects and essays lead me to having a fever.
my panicking last night, i had a really bad fever, i was covered in sweat last night. and the fact that i couldnt go to school stressed me out so i got a fever.
I think i am okay now, my body is pretty relaxed and I am feeling better than yesterday and especially this morning. Man, I didn't feel so well to the point that I didn't even know what I was talking about. I was reading my texts I sent my boyfriend... and what is wrong with me? I'll tell the gooses to get their hats? what? haha that makes no sense..
I am actually super glad i didn't go to school today. If i went, I would of gotten worse. Besides, I have time to finish things up today, slowly pace on finishing all my math, and I'll get my dad to edit my essay and turn it in tomorrow.
Everything will be okay. I can't be mad for not going to school because it worked for the best.
My boyfriend is a real sweetheart though. Although i don't remember much that I said to him.. really I don't. I remember what he said to me. Well... okay I only remember a little bit too. >.<
But if i remember right, he kept telling me to sleep and take care of myself. He always tries to watch over me, he always tries to make sure I am at my best all the time. To be honest I am really touched by that. He even was patient when i was saying things that didn't make any sense. I guessing getting sick was another way to show me how much my boyfriend cares about me. How much i need to take care of myself more.
My boyfriend, has always been watching over me. I really appreciate him around. His smile, his worried tone, his optimistic behavior, everything...I am really glad i met him.
*yawn*
I am tired again.
I am going to sleep some more.
See ya

Samii says...

I'm grounded.
She says:
*Ill have her type this*

Reason of grounding:
"...Stop DOING SHIT FOR PEOPLE. THEY CAN DO IT THEMSELVES, YOU AREN'T THEIR HANDS WOMAN. STOPPPPPPPPPPPPPP. You are grounded for the rest of the month >>"

and apparently my boyfriend should ground me too.
what is this world coming to?!

Panning today :p

today i was a victim of running in front of my class so they could take pictures of panning.
actually... i did offer...
lol
but it was fun.
I got to use a complicated camera.

taken from Samii's camera.

and in case you don't know who Samii is, here is her picture.

so yeah, about the embarressing Erika running picture?

lmao

I was laughing at Samii.

or another running picture?

Im running from the cows. :P
yeahh, I was running in a skirt... didn't think I'd automatically volunteer myself (without thinking) and run? not very smart. :P

and apparently Samii likes this picture?

but yeah, Samii's a G.
(:
ttyl

Wow.. ex's? really?

So my ex is one of my friends, but the thing is, I use to buy her things.
yes her, I dated a girl once. It didn't work out so well.
So anyways,
She has a boyfriend, which is cool, I don't really care about that. she wears and uses all of the gifts I give her. I mean cool, yeah your using the stuff I bought you, that makes me happy....I guess. At least the stuff is put to use. I just hope its not awkward with her boyfriend you know? but you know the best part?... She gives her boyfriend the gifts I bought her, and has him wear them.Has him use them.
WTF?
 Common sense? really? you got to be kidding me..
Thats all I got to say.
thats just stupid.
Its kind of like:
Girl: Hey, you can wear this, my ex bought it just for me ^_^
Boy: Great, I'll take care of it and wear it.
Girl: Great! :D It's mine now so it doesn't matter.

Um...... really?
wow...

Boyfriend.

One word frees us of all the weight and pain of life: that word is love.

- Sophocles

Man, i love my boyfriend. He's always there for me, he's so sweet and nice.. and man.. I love him so much.

I don't know how to contain it.

He takes away my pain, my suffering, he turns everything into bliss.

He's like a shining light that makes my heart, my soul light up into optimism.

My heart, my soul, me even has never loved someone so much. 

I want to be with him forever.
He leaves me speechless and sooo sooo very happy ^_^
but I am going to stop now. I want to tell him the rest in person.
I love you Shane!
Erika~ your shooting star ^_^

the world...it's a strange thing

I have began to notice somethings that have been on my mind a lot lately.
you see, I am a bit strange and I look at things completely different then probably most people.
I usually take each event and analyze it. I try to understand people, I try to understand things, I try to understand addictions. I try to understand different kinds of love. I try to understand even lust. I try to understand everything. Of course, that's impossible but i still want to know and understand as much as I can..
each time i see something like this, I ponder, I think..
This world is strange.. that's all i really CAN think.
Have you ever sat down and wondered, why are we here... why am I here.
How did this really all happen? What does believing really do?
Why is there sadness? Why is there happiness?
Why do i get happy? Why do I get sad? Why do I get angry?
I just don't understand.
the things that happen, all link together in one..
If this happens, then another thing happens right on time.
Like it was meant to happen.
Like it was destiny.
No matter what the result is, there is always a reason behind it..
a meaning behind it.
Today...
I was late for jazz band, I rushed and rushed and came to school..
to see all my friends waiting in the band hallway.
Mr. Pelandini never did show up.
and I left at 7 and went to my math teacher.
I really didn;t want to go...
so i tried to go to my second period.
it was locked.
so i was like okay,
fine, fine, i'll go to my math teacher and get help.
so i did..
and i understand it.
my mom always told me
(shes buddhist)
God is always watching you, he wants you to succeed,
he wants you to comprehend, and since you are a good person,
God will continue to help you. The kinder you are, God will notice this.
Erika you must always be kind. You will get what you need in return.
As soon as I got help, another class I was struggling in..
I don't know why but I just walked all by itself and found myself going into the civics room.
I guess i was thinking how cold it was and wanted to go to the band room to get warm.
But the band room was locked.
I ended up getting a lot of work done...
I don't know everything is tieing together.
I guess thats why I don't believe in coincidences.
Never at all.
Cuz theres always a reason why you did something, a reason why you did this thing
a reason why you saw this person, a reason why you met this person, a reason why theres troubles.
Theres no such thing as a coincidence.
alright, thats my deep thinking for the day.

Erika