I... Feel so sad today

Well screw sadness! Its just a wretch! Come on. I am Erika right(: Erika the asían! Theres nothing i cant overcome! (: I won't let things control me. I won't sulk. I have a mission to do (: and I have to be strong (: don't wear out the phrase people give you and be strong (: and as Le says, if you feel an emotion change that's it. So that's it! But idk I do have something bothering me. I kind of talk about other guys with my boyfriend bc I vent about things with him and I trust him enough to tell him. But, I've come to realize when I do that it just bothers him and it makes him jealous. And that's plenty understandable I mean.. I would be jealous too.. And I feel bad bc I never really thought things through about it. And I'm scared bc I didn't want him to make him sad or upset over it.. He's always so nice to me.. He tries his hardest.. Even if I only get to talk to him for a little a day or barely talk to him bc I'm upset or being moody or just don't have time.. Yet, I feel like I made him upset. And I'd be upset too. I'm not sure if I should keep asking him for help (cuz that's what I was trying to do.. But he gets upset so I stop) or just shut up about it.. Porbably just shut up about it. I can deal with it myself. I'll rely on him for things that r more important.. Man I need a hug right now.. I'm so sorry baby... Forgive me?